Brutal Barbarism

Yesterday, I walked out of my divorce workshop with Legal Aid completely numb. I went through the machinations of the help session and then that was it. A 15-year relationship simply rubbed away with a notary's signature. On the drive home, while I was processing that little death, I ruminated on the three people on … Continue reading Brutal Barbarism

What, no rainbows?

What, no rainbows?I was hoping to wake up on this first day of 2019 with a smile, rainbows shooting through the window and sprays of confetti, (hooray, it's a new year. whoo-hoo, 365 days to do it right) but instead I woke up screaming and crying from a nightmare saddled with a crick in my … Continue reading What, no rainbows?

“Joy”eux Noël

Think of moments of past, present and anticipatory joy. The barely containable joy. The kind of joy that finds you grinning from ear to ear. Bubbling inside. The cusp of orgasm happy. The kind of joy that occasionally shows up and in my case is synonymous with experiences like the stretching room of the Haunted … Continue reading “Joy”eux Noël

Brush with the Dalai Lama

My younger self read a book called, "The Tibetan Book of the Dead".  At the time, I was interested in reincarnation and death, (Whatever. Isn't everyone curious about how we are going to exit?) so I hunted the book down and sat in my room and read it. It was a grueling slog of a … Continue reading Brush with the Dalai Lama

Yeah, Ally! Thanks

I woke up to a notification that my online savings bank, Ally, increased their APY (Annual Percentage Yield) from 1.8% to 2.0%. Ya'll, that's good for a savings account.  One key action to achieving financial independence is an emergency fund. If you are anything like me, you have a back up credit card sitting in … Continue reading Yeah, Ally! Thanks

Marrying Myself

November 15, 2018 (maybe the 16th...it's late or early) "You complete me" are three powerful words that countless people hang their hopes on. And it couldn't be more off-base in regards to relationship/partnership. Nothing external will make me whole or complete. No partner, no marriage, no work and no material things. It took me decades … Continue reading Marrying Myself